Happy Holidays! It’s been awhile since I’ve had time to blog. 2013 turned out to be a very busy year, with lots of adventure and excitement! It’s time to turn inwards now, as the year comes to a close. Yesterday at 12:11 pm EST we hit the longest night of the year. We now get to move forwards and let more light back into our lives. Several hours after the annual Solstice, at 4:53 pm EST, Venus began her roughly year and half Retrograde cycle, which will last through the end of January! She is retrograding from 29 degrees Capricorn, all the way back to 13 degrees Capricorn. Wherever Capricorn lies in your chart, is the area where for the next 40 days you’ll be reviewing your values and what means the most to you.
The Venus Retrograde “Shadow” goes all the way back through November 20th. So if you’re looking for clues as to what you’ll be reviewing, just look to the days between then and yesterday and you will find the answer! Remember that Retrogrades are a time for RE-doing things, not starting something new! I do not advise beginning a new relationship or business during a Venus Retrograde (or a Mars Retrograde either), but re-viewing an old one to learn valuable lessons and become clearer in your mind on what you want for the future once Venus goes Direct is a great way to spend this cycle!
The Solstice chart shows some big changes ahead with the Sun/Pluto, Uranus, Mars, T-square that will come to a head towards New Years. This combined with the Venus Retrograde makes it a great time to lose what’s not working for you in the past, and finally move on to new things once Venus goes Direct. Now’s a great time for visioning, but not starting to act until February. It’s a great time for de-cluttering and meditation. Let’s use this quiet Winter energy for what it best has to offer us–a time for Reflection and Re-envisioning what we want for our lives for 2014 and beyond!
Relax, settle into a nice cup of cocoa, and have a listen to some music to reflect to on Spotify!
It’s hard to believe that it’s almost mid October! Summer has slipped into Fall, and today the weather was the kind of beautiful crispness, with a clarity that only autumn can bring. I find the Fall brings a kind of lucidity that only it can bring. Summer can be hazy daze, Spring an uncertain damping thaw, and Winter icy alertness. But only Fall can bring a sense of harvest and fulfillment, that other seasons cannot. The farmer’s markets are overfilled with flowers and vegetables of all kinds, and there is a bounty with the changing of the leaves.
Astrologically, this Fall may be intense, with the Equinox chart showing Venus in Scorpio, conjunct Saturn Square Mars in Leo, and The Sun in a T-Square opposing Uranus, Squaring Pluto. The good news is that Venus is Trine Jupiter, so even thought sparks may fly with Mars, ultimately growth and opportunity and expansion should occur during this Fall Harvest!
This year may have felt as though it’s gone at a breakneck pace, however, the good news is that we’re in for a lot of R&R astrologically this Fall and coming Winter (and actually all the way through May of 2014)! It seems to be as if we’re all going to be taking a 6 month recharge of the batteries, starting in mid December when Venus goes Retrograde until the end of January 2014. Then in February Mercury will be Retrograde, and then come March Mars will get into the act Retrograding all the way through mid May! It might be a Winter to get a Roku and resubscribe to Netflix if you’ve let your subscription lax! It also might be a great Winter to rest up and recouperate, psychologically and physically (I wouldn’t advise going on any daredevil trips for the first time during Mars Retro!).
However, I’ve gotten ahead of myself. Let’s get back to the beautiful clarity of this Fall, which will culminate in an eclipse this Friday October 18th at 7:37 pm EDT. Mars will be Trine Pluto, Venus Trine Uranus, and Mercury (soon to go Retrograde) Trine Jupiter. This should be a high point of discovery before Mercury reverses course on Monday Oct 21st at 6:28 am EDT in Scorpio. During the weeks until Mercury goes direct on Nov 10th, hidden things in area where Scorpio is in your chart may be unearthed! With a Solar Eclipse on November 3rd, the Fall may offer new beginnings that could come from a contact from the past, or a hidden karma that will bring a great new start in one area of your life!
Enjoy the bounty, discovery, and clarity of mind that this Fall brings to you before our next solstice that brings in the rest and recuperation of Winter!
Back from the Promised Land, it took me a week to get back to NYC time! All last week I was going to bed at 9:30 pm as I was stuck on Israeli time as that was late there. My trip was more relaxing, amazing, as well as more of a wake-up call in regards to certain family matters than I expected. How could one expect a trip taken on an eclipse and when Venus was retrograding over the Sun to be uneventful!?! Needless to say, I can completely recommend Petra, Jordan, the Dead Sea, and Jerusalem, Israel if you want a trip with adventure! It was amazing and mystical to interact with cities, both living and dead, over 2,000 years old. Makes New York City, seem, well, new. Blissfully, I floated in the Dead Sea (and if you know how I feel about swimming, you’ll know that is a miracle!), and relaxed in an amazing spa of water pools! Which was good, because if you think you’re in good shape, just take a trip to Jordan, you’ll realize you’re not! I don’t think I’ve had so much exercise in a long time and I work-out three times a week. In Jerusalem, the airwaves felt extremely clear, and I had these dreams where I had these in depth soul-to-soul conversations with people I haven’t spoken with in a while!
Astrologically, the Lunar eclipse to the latest New Moon this past Tuesday, was a period of reflection and introspection on what issues this Venus Retrograde has brought to you. Many have been confronted with issues of loss and recovering from loss that have surfaced, but other issues in the realm of weak spots in relationships have been brought to the forefront of ones’ mind for reintegration.
This New Moon, still with Venus Retrograde, has Sun/Moon Square Mars in Virgo, after it’s completed it’s full cycle from Shadow to Shadow, which may in fact bring up a few issues from the Winter/Spring that still need final completion. Retrograding Venus is Square Neptune and Chiron indicating the need for Spiritual Healing in relationships, and trying to work on karmic issues that have come to the forefront, especially as Sun/Moon is loosely opposite Pluto, indicating one might need to confront something or someone who seems to have more power over you than they (or it) should!
The Solstice brings similar themes for the next three months, as the longest day of the year clocked in on Wednesday, officially at 7:10 pm EDT. The Sun/Pluto opposition is slightly more intense, and we are still confronted with Spiritual wounds that are in need of healing, but with the Sun officially in Cancer, it Trines Neptune and Chiron which should give us the light to find out way out of the messes we’ve gotten ourselves into.
As we head off into the sunniest party of the year, let’s listen to some soulful, mystical music, with the Solstice Mixtape, (available on Spotify here!).
Soon, I will be going to the Promised Land, and waking up in an ancient city of of red stone, when Venus walks the Face of the Sun (Tuesday or Wednesday depending on where you are located in the world). Things have been quite intense lately, it seems for almost everyone, and with a Lunar eclipse happening tomorrow June 4th at 7:11 am EDT on the East Coast, Neptune going retrograde later that day, and Venus Retrograding over the face of the sun, it’s all a bit much!
This eclipse might be a bit more intense than others, especially due to the fact that the Sun/Venus opposing Moon are all Square Mars! The Venus Square Mars is particularly close, so if there’s tension in a relationship, it’s possible that one or both of you might decide to end it. Although I usually advise not to made big decisions during an eclipse, sometimes it can’t be helped, so if something ends during this time, it’s important to know that you’re releasing something so that something better can fill its place.
I chose an image of a hallway of mirrors (from the Met actually!) because with so much action happening in Gemini, the sign of the Twins, I think this is an especially good time to look in the mirror, and really evaluate what you see. All relationships start with the relationship you have to your self. And what kind of relationship do you have with yourself? Our culture asks us more often “Who are you with?” rather than “How do you relate to yourself and how does this impact your relationship with others?” Is your relationship about how you both interact and relate to each other or are you just together because the other person will “reflect” well on you and make you look good? Or are you simply with this person because you don’t want to have to be only with your own reflection, that you might not like so well?
Venus continues her Retrograde passage even after her passage in front of the Sun. All through June 27th, we’ll have more than ample opportunity to reflect on our values, especially in relationships and how they reflect on the image we have of ourselves. A question you might ask yourself is “What do I see when I look in the mirror?”
Enjoy your time of reflection, and I will be back posting later in June, hopefully having fully asked myself all of the questions above, and having found some answers!
So what’cha what’cha what’cha want?
You’re so funny with the money that you flaunt
Where’d you get your information from huh?
You think that you can front when the revelation comes?
Yeah, You can’t front on that!
Well I think I’m losing my mind this time
This time I’m losing my mind, that’s right
Said I think I’m losing my mind this time
This time I’m losing my mind
“So What’cha Want” Check Your Head
I’ve Got A Hole In My Head And There’s No One To Fix It
Got To Straighten My Thoughts, I’m Thinking Too Much Sick Shit
Everyone Just Takes and Takes, Takes, Takes, Takes
I’ve Got To Step Back, I’ve Got To Contemplate
Oh Yes Indeed, It’s Fun Time
‘Cause You Can’t, You Won’t And You Don’t Stop
“Sure Shot” Ill Communication
Have you ever really listened to the the lyrics of the Beastie Boys “So What’cha Want“? This song, as well as “Sure Shot” have been playing in my head almost non-stop for the past two weeks. They’re really brilliant songs, ones that I don’t think that I ever fully got before. Before, I began, that is, what I’d like to refer to as my MLC, (Mid Life Crisis). Or maybe it’s not a mid-life crisis at all! Perhaps in fact, it’s just Twin Eclipses within a Venus Retrograde period that I’ve mistaken for a mid-life crisis! One thing is for sure, turning 39 and this Eclipse a few days later, did a number on me.
I thought I had things figured out. I did my stint in therapy. I’ve grappled with thorny family issues and thought I knew enough about myself that 39 wasn’t going to phase me. But take a birthday party loaded with being the last of the 30’s, dozens of friends who were out of town that weekend, a Food Festival (which shall remain nameless since everyone knows it already) that everyone was dying to go to so they could stuff their faces with foie-grois donuts, and combine it with my MLC, and well, the word “clusterfuck” doesn’t begin to describe the situation!
Why? Because I’ve always thought that I could get through anything knowing that I had my friends behind me. I’m very devoted to my friends. But when friends you thought were close, have known for over ten years, and you see regularly, not only don’t come to your party (and are either secretly or not so secretly at that un-named Food Festival because an opportunity for endless all day eating is really terribly important–especially since not everyone got golden tickets!) but don’t even bother to wish you a happy birthday via email, but your corporate employer and your dentist DO wish you a happy birthday, well, that’s just a recipe for “What the Fuck Am I Doing With My Life?” thoughts right there! That and, “Either I’m being taken for granted, or some of my friends have early Alzheimer’s, and will they even remember who I am when I turn 40?“
I kind of saw it coming, and thought long and hard about canceling the party last minute and getting the fuck out of town where everyone else was going but couldn’t think up something with such short notice. Because, well I don’t HAVE a Summer Home to vacation to! I’m about to turn 40 next year and I don’t even own my apartment! So I went through with it, to the gory end, because I Can’t, Won’t, and Don’t Stop. Because, “I’m that kid in the corner all fucked up and I wanna, so I’m gonna.” And I’m very grateful for the few friends who did come, and joined me, in what I termed my MLC party. Sometimes crisis weeds out the superfluous.
So “What’cha What’cha Want?” Venus Retrograde ask the question. The Two Eclipses, (Solar, May 20, 7:47 pm edt, Lunar June 4, 7:12 am edt) in the middle are turning points that will guide you. What’s making you happy? What’s not making you happy? Are you putting your energy into the wrong things or people? Should you be walking in a different direction because you’re not growing? I know I’ve got a lot of re-evaluating on the TO DO list. When I looked at the chart of these eclipses and retrogrades and how they would and now are transiting through my 12th house, I thought I would have some sort of crisis of faith. And it turns out I am. I really hate it when I’m right.
But enough about me and my MLC. You have your own eclipse issues and Venus Retrograde questions to ask yourself! Think about it all while listening to the “What’cha What’cha Want? Twin Eclipses” playlist (on spotify here)!
And next year, and I’m planning on taking a Roman Holiday, by myself!